If I had the time, I could and I damn would. Always dreamed of giving something like this to a kid who, like myself at his age, desperately just needed that: a goal, a project, a tangible thing directed by a capable tangible being, something to do with himself other than the same shit everyone [...]

i get so pissed off at the vendors that I end up giving shit away because its the only thing I can do to remember why I like what I do. Im like the snake that eats itself: lose money because my vendors are jackoffs and then to compensate for wanting to murder them for [...]

The Captain used to have 2-3 smokes going on at his desk at once, my desk made me think of him this morning.

taking a huge risk, with huge stakes. If this fails, I am fucked. I like the rush…I like knowing hard hard this will fail if I am wrong, I like knowing I made the jump and gave ‘er hell as best I could. No stone left un-turned, decisions like this remind you when its all [...]